The Bachelor: Melissa Rycroft has never watched her season–and we don’t blame her

The Bachelor’s Melissa Rycroft reveals she’s never watched her season–and we totally get it.

The Bachelor Season 13 was one for the ages, and one that went down in Bachelor Nation history as one of the most dramatic (I know, I know, we say that all the time). But seriously, Jason Mesnick’s time as the lead was controversial and a first for the franchise.

At the center of the drama that unfolded was The Bachelor Season 13 winner, Melissa Rycroft. She may have been the one Jason proposed to, but it’s not the woman he was really in love with. And this indecisive ordeal led to one of the most awkward, dramatic “After The Final Rose” specials Bachelor Nation has ever seen.

Oh, that balcony cry. We can’t forget the epic balcony cry.

While many of us watched that season, and cringed, there is one person who didn’t actually go back and watch it once it officially aired–Melissa Rycroft. The woman who was scorned didn’t want to watch the season back–imagine that?

In a PEOPLE exclusive sneak peek, we see Rycroft drop by The Bachelor: Greatest Seasons Ever to talk to Chris Harrison about that unexpected ending to Jason’s season.

"Gosh. Well, first, I’ve still never seen my season of The Bachelor. I’ve never seen that infamous After the Final Rose. I’ve seen clips and stuff. It’s weird, I’ll be honest. It’s just really surreal, because it feels like a lifetime ago. It feels like I was a different person then."

But since those days, Melissa’s life has changed significantly. She got married to Tye Strickland and the couple have three children together. So, alls well that ends well, right?

Given that a decade has gone by and life has moved on for both Jason and Melissa, how does she feel about their situation all this time later? And how does she feel about it in comparison to Arie’s decision to change his mind?

"I think when Jason proposed to me, he genuinely thought it was me and was being honest about his feelings. He realized the relationship didn’t work, and that’s how it ended. But with Arie, no woman out there wants to hear you picked me because I was safe, because the woman you really wanted you think would have rejected you. Even if you are feeling that, don’t say it!"

I would have to agree with her there. I think what Arie did versus what Jason did is very different, and at the end of the day, Jason had an internal struggle over who to pick. Arie was just next-level ridiculous–and still is to this day.

In any case, I’m curious to see if Melissa watches this week’s episode of The Bachelor: Greatest Seasons Ever and tries to catch her first glimpse of the season that certainly made a huge impact on her life.

And if she does–we wish her the best of luck. She’s probably going to need it.

What did you think of the drama during Jason Mesnick’s season? Share your comments below!